A few days ago, I received a notification that my blog has been around for 6 years! Oh my goodness, that really is hard to believe- I remember very clearly starting this blog, and what I thought I wanted to write about. Funny how that wound up working out- my writing had other plans, and took me in a very different direction.
Sometimes I want to go back and remove some of the posts I have shared. There are plenty where it is clear to me that I was not doing so well when I wrote them, and it causes me a bit of shame to read the words I wrote when I was not in my right mind. But I haven’t done it yet, and I don’t know if I will- that’s kind of what this blog is; a real life account of an addict, both using and clean. I can confirm that this is true with simple math- the blog is six years old, and I have two years, eight months, and one day clean. There were many small stretches of sobriety interspersed here with other stretches of not-so-much.
There were long periods of time when I didn’t write anything at all- maybe one or two disjointed posts over the stretch of many months. There were times when I promised to write again regularly, and meant it, only for life to show up and take me for a ride in a different direction. There were times when I thought about abandoning this particular project all together, but just…never got around to it. I’m glad I didn’t do that.
I was fooling around with the stats of this blog the other night, and there is a way to see how many other countries have viewed your blog. Let me tell you, in six years, I don’t think there is one country that hasn’t at least popped in. Countries I honestly didn’t know existed have viewed this blog! It blew my mind. There have been thousands and thousands of views, thousands of likes, and hundreds of comments. I mean, that is so freaking cool!
So, happy birthday to my blog, and thanks so much to all of you who take the time out of your lives to read my ramblings, who reach out to me and let me know you are really feeling what I do, and who make me feel like I have something to offer. This has been a wonderful part of my journey.
I am happy to report that I am not the same person who started this blog six years ago. I have been through so much, but I have learned from all of it, and I am in a much better place now than I have ever been before. My life is calm (for the most part), my recovery is solid, and my heart has more peace in it than it ever has before. I have learned that I do not have to be afraid of myself anymore- I have learned to trust myself to do the right thing. This is huge. There was a time when I feared that if no one else could save me, left to my own devices, I was as good as dead. I’m so glad to report that I was wrong. Somehow, and with some divine intervention, I’m sure, I became the hero of my own story.
Not only can I depend on myself, but other people can depend on me- my job knows I will show up. My kids know I will be there for them. My friends can call me, day or night. I might not pick up the phone every time, but I will definitely come through as soon as I can (hey, I’m not perfect, give me a break). My bills get paid, and the chores, eventually, get done. My dog gets walked, my cats get…whatever it is that cats need.
In short, my life has become a safe place to be, and it blows my mind every single time it sinks in. Like, whoa! How did I get here? It is truly staggering, the reality of how I turned this ship around. I am proud of it, sure, but more than that, I am deeply, profoundly grateful.
And I look forward to sharing it all with you, going forward. Thanks for hanging out!
Congrats!!
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Thank you! It’s been quite a ride. 🙂
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Beautiful, and congratulations! I was sitting in a meeting this week, and a man shared, “Show up for who you are.” Keep showing up lovely. xx
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Thank you! I think I will! ❤️😊
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You forgot to mention that you are also showing up for your brother and your mother. Sometimes, you are now MY rock. I know I can call you when I’m stressed over your brother, and get the bare truth, un-minced words of advice – little Taurus that you are! It means a lot to Casey and I both. I’m very proud of the woman you have become. I always knew that was who you were under all the chaos…xxooxx!!
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Awww…thanks, mommy! ❤️❤️❤️
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Congratulations!! 🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊
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Thank you!
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I just started reading your blog, and it sounds like it’s been quite an adventure for you. Good for you for trying to make your life the way you want it to be.
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Thank you so much! I still have lots of work to do, but it’s all about adding the good stuff now! The hardest part is, I hope, behind me. So glad to have you here! I love Tarot! I have a few really cool decks. Not the greatest at reading them, but I enjoy them all the same. ❤️
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I’m glad you like tarot. I think each person can get something diffrent out of it. I feel like each deck and each version of the cards says something different to me.
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Your viewpoint is strikingly refreshing. I am glad I stopped in. You give me hope.
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Thank you so much!
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Congrats. What a journey you’re on and it’s not surprising you’re not the same person you were when you started your blog. I think that’s the beauty of blogging. We become much more mindful. Best wishes to you and happy blogging into the future 💙 xo
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Thank you! ❤️
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You and your family are absolutely beautiful❤️. What a gift we have been given to get to participate in our lives today. Congrats on 6 years of blogging, people need to hear what you have to say. I know it helps me.
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Thank you so much! My girls are pretty darn cute, I will have to agree on that one. 😍
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Happy Blogiversary and keep on blogging.
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Thank you!
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Nice to hear and you all look so normal and beautiful!!
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Thanks! We are pretty normal…hahaha! Well, not really, but we can pass. 🙂
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