When this is over, I will say yes to everything.
I will never be too tired or grouchy or lazy again.
When this is over, I will have barbecues and parties. I will have friends for lunch and fancy dinner parties for no reason.
When this is over, I will visit when my mother asks me. I will wander through my daughters garden and take my time, listen and look as she points out every flower. I will hug her and not let go for a very long time.
I miss her. I worry, you know.
When this is over, and I can move freely through the world again, I will remember. I’ll remember what it was like to fear the grocery store.
To fear the goddamn shopping cart.
To feel my heart race every time Cam touched a handle or a box.
When this is over, I swear I will go camping with Jen instead of trying to figure out how to get out of it.
I’ll find the time. I’ll make the time.
When this is over, maybe I’ll stop crying every day.
Or maybe I’ll cry for a long, long time.
I just really hope I’m here
I hope all of us are here
When this is over.