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Burnout

You ever just get sick of yourself?

C’mon, you can tell me. I promise I won’t tell anyone.

Guys, I am SICK of myself. I need a break from me. I honestly can’t take another moment of being cooped up in this damn house with my unpredictable mood swings. I’ve had it.

Which is why I am going to go see my daughter today. If anyone is the queen of socially isolating, it’s her- she was doing it way before it was asked of us- and I just need a change of scenery. Badly.

Oh, and also my water has been shut off since Friday evening, because the main water line exploded, so…no showers, limited flushing, no laundry, no dish washing. This is not the best. Especially right now when I know how badly we need to be washing our hands. Ugh. I would ask if things could get any worse, but…we all know they could.

I am so ready for life to return to some semblance of normal. And not the “we’re gonna pretend it’s normal because we want it to be normal” thing we just did last month, either. We all saw how great that worked out. No, I want real solutions and a REAL return to normal. I want farmer’s market and dinner out with friends. I want to run to the store without it being a big deal. I want to be able to make plans for the future again.

I want to feel safe in the world.

I just needed to let that out. Thanks for listening.

Author:

I'm a single mom living life fully after years of intense addiction, trying to navigate life with grace-and failing spectacularly, sometimes. Learning to be a grown up In my 40's, without losing my lust for life, or my faith in humanity. Come, watch the antics. It should be fun (for you, at least).

3 thoughts on “Burnout

  1. Sorry to hear that things aren’t great. It’s really an uncertain situation to be in, and many of us are suffering because of it. Just know you aren’t alone, and that at some point, things will have to change. Stay safe and healthy!

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  2. Hug
    We had a flood here at the end of April and ended up on a boil water advisory for over 2 months.
    You could shower, but needed to sanitize hands after washing them. Bottled water to consume.

    At the very start of it I almost moved away for the summer. What a unending hassle.

    Like everything I got in a routine and it’s wasn’t terrible, but I was really happy to get back to normal.

    I think we are all tired of change. Sigh

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